Feeling heartbroken and discouraged today. The outcome was as expected but I held out hope. I received a letter of “not invited to attend UCSF class of 2017…” It was a standard letter from my first choice school. I had hoped for an interview after working so diligently on the application but things are not meant to be, here. I have to wait until February or so to hear back from the other schools. Mostly I am disappointed, and jealous. My classmate received an invitation to interview, and he’s not even all that interested. He is currently busy at the fire academy. I think about him and how our paths diverged and wonder what else could I have done to make my application more competitive. Should I have spent the fall doing something more “medical” instead of working for a foundation? I re-interview this week for that hospital scribe position I had interviewed for last July. They filled all the positions last time, but put me on the top of list for when positions opened again.
I know when things look bleak, there is a lesson to be learned and it was not the right opportunity for me. I am a firm believer in all things happen for a reason, as they are meant to be. Crossing this school off the list; now opens up new decisions and a different path. I am 75% certain now I will be leaving San Francisco after the spring. I may be accepted to another SF school but given all my choices, it may not be the best school for me. I hate packing up to move.
I hope whichever new city I end up in has archery classes. The good news is, Colorado, North Carolina and British Columbia – Canada are all mountain bike towns and all of them have snow. I have missed the mountains. My friend found this picture today and it makes me feel hopeful.